Here is the pattern of my life:
I meet people. I charm them. I repel them.

Now I can't help disappearing inch by inch as each day passes. I am only pieces of myself, I wonder if anyone will notice. I know they can see my unraveling but politely ignore it. I cringe with thoughts of what they will say when I'm not around even though I pretend to be confident and self-assured.

Sometimes at a large gathering of acquaintances I become filled with panic at the thought of carrying a conversation. I used to be witty and fun. Now I am awkward. I am the elephant man. Literally everything I say and do is strange and annoying.

I wish I could reset.