Sameeha Azar

What will I do when my Grandmother dies? She has always, for whatever reason, loved me wholly and unconditionally. She is the only person I can say this about. In fact, if I have learned anything from this existence about love, it would be everything she taught me. I cant imagine a world without her.

Cigarettes and Coffee (I enjoy neither)

Even though it's disgusting and I'd never smoke, I think some women look so lovely with a cigarette

Best Movie

In Sabrina Audrey Heburn goes to culinary school. On the first day, she learns to crack an egg. (My experience was a bit more fast paced). A man in her class sees that she has ruined her souffle because she forgets to be turn on the oven.
"Unhappy in love?". he asks
"How did you know?"
"A woman happily in love burns the souffle, a women unhappy in love forgets to turn on the oven."
Great line.
She also writes the cutest suicide note ever. "I don't want to go to Paris. I want to die."
Even Audrey could make that sound adorable. It's laughable to me that for the first part of the movie she is supposed to be playing a plain, unnoticed girl. Even then she is stunning.
Juliet Binoche did her no justice in the remake.

and whose heart is not a hungry fish?

"I would like to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only. I would like to be that unnoticed and that necessary."

- Margaret Atwood

Some people are meant to be alone

The only time I ever feel relatively normal is when I'm alone, on the outside looking in. It is this reason why I will never be able to co-exist happily with another person.

In love with ghosts

I broke my necklace tonight. I have a pair of soft-cotton Victoria Secret pajamas that I reserve just for nights like these.

He once said I was one of the happiest people he had ever met.

It's times like these I'm not sure exactly who I am. I feel two things for sure:

1. I am Thumbelina. I am the only person like myself and I have no faith that I'll find a counterpart
2. I am, at once, two complete halves that are perfectly opposite. It is this reason that has made it so hard to figure out exactly who I am. You know, if someone asked me to describe myself I wouldn't know which person to start with. This stems from my 17 year old exile. I had to become a whole different person, and ever since then I've been trying to become the person I lost. I never got to be 17, I wonder what it would feel like.

P.S. Moviegoer might have just trumped A Moveable Feast for my favorite book of all time. I feel like Walker Percy wrote his character "Kate" about me. How fitting.

"I'm not frightened. I'm not frightened of anything. The more I suffer, the more I love. Danger will only increase my love. It will sharpen it, forgive its vice. I will be the only angel you need. You will leave life even more beautiful than you entered it. Heaven will take you back and look at you and say: Only one thing can make a soul complete and that thing is love."

A clairvoyant once told my mother to give me a camera.

Today at Publix my cashier looked at me quizzically and asked, "Are you a photographer? You look like someone who takes pictures"

Is the universe trying to tell me something? What a cruel joke, I've never been good at photography.