Current Third Degree Burn

While working with 300 degree isomalt sugar, I had a bit of a mishap and now have a third degree burn on my middle finger (excellent place) and a blister the size of North America. It is disgusting. Like repulsive even. I don't think I can go out in public today. FML.

Movies by myself

seems to be a trend that won't be ending soon. Regardless, Synecdoche New York was lovely. I almost cried. If it wasn't for my emotional inabilities I probably would have. I would totally fall in love with Phillip Seymour Hoffman, if given the chance. One line in particular stick out at me from the end of the film:

"I guess no one wants to hear my story, because everyone has got their own misery to deal with. Well I say, Fuck Everybody. "

It was incredibly weird, but good. worth watching. Now that I'm in a Charlie Kaufman mood, I'll be watching Adaptation with a bowl of honey nut cheerios in about 5 minutes.

YES

THIS MOVIE IS FINALLY OUT. HELLO LONELY MOVIE MATINEE TIME!

simple pleasures

I wish I had more time to travel, I forgot how much I miss hotel rooms. I'm adding this to my list of goals because I believe in pre-new year resolutions:

1. Travel more
2. Learn French
3. Be a better person (this is directly correlated to putting my shopping carts away in the parking lot instead of stashing them behind someones car)
4. Eat better
5. Sleep better
6. Finish a book every two weeks (equaling 24 books a year) currently: The Great Gatsby next: Lolita
7. Love my parents
8. Love myself.

like unconditionally.

"all of the music, movies and literature I horde, I would gladly trade for one meaningful conversation with a stranger"

lately I've been noticing a craving for conversation. Much like the saddening withdrawal of Vitamin D that I will be experiencing in a few short weeks, my body is signaling to me the necessity to communicate. I would love nothing more than to make this happen, but it seems more difficult than one would think. I don't even know what I want to talk about: books, movies, politics, the creation of the universe - I've given up on the hope of intimacy through touch and now need to resort through intimacy with words. I think I just have an unhealthy obsession with dialogue and somehow think that even a little meaningless chatter might make me feel more motivated to seize the day.

J.D. SALINGER

“Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behaviour. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them—if you want to. Just as some day, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.”

tattoo

"I have been have in love with easeful death"