I just wish I could stop being so damn sad all the time. I remember exactly where I was this time last year, in the same rut. some things have changed, but not many. I can just bet that in 2 months time, when I am forced to finally complete this year of my life, I will end up crying tears of apathy and discontent in traffic. Power of suggestive thinking? perhaps. I should be able to fix this, I really should. But I can't, that, in and of itself, is only making things worse.