I want someone to love my nuiances. I've learned that I'm not strong, I am weak and fragile and falling to pieces, lost in this world. I only let certain people see it and I was foolish to think I could leave myself exposed and not expect to get hurt. Is it so much to ask just for companionship? What is it about me that makes people love me but then discard me? As though they found something special enough to captivate them but not important enough to hold onto. I can't think of one thing in my life that I really have, that belongs to me and won't disappear.

If and when I am ever wanted, I'll be too hurt and jaded to ever let anyone in again.

patience

I wish I didn't like you anymore. Eternal Sunshine makes so much more sense to me now.

I miss the days when a boy would walk you to class and then you would spend the entire period obsessing over the walk and what it meant and then download a song from a band you know he liked and then play the song over and over again on repeat.

In this case, crash into me by Dave Matthews.

1(a le af fa ll s) one l iness

trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love
though the stars walk backward)

the letter

Put my heart in an envelope and sent it in the mail today. It will probably come back in pieces.

My little monster

Life’s too short to be a fool ; I don’t owe you that
Do what you feel ; Love is cruel ; But I just have to ask
Will you make a plan to love me?

I'm unhappy, but at least I'm consistent.

I can't tell you how badly I wanted someone to kiss me under the fireworks tonight.