I want someone to love my nuiances. I've learned that I'm not strong, I am weak and fragile and falling to pieces, lost in this world. I only let certain people see it and I was foolish to think I could leave myself exposed and not expect to get hurt. Is it so much to ask just for companionship? What is it about me that makes people love me but then discard me? As though they found something special enough to captivate them but not important enough to hold onto. I can't think of one thing in my life that I really have, that belongs to me and won't disappear.

If and when I am ever wanted, I'll be too hurt and jaded to ever let anyone in again.