I don't know, just feeling a little lost I guess

Of the list of things I'm really good at, making sandwiches would probably be in my top five.

My hearts a little broken but it's nice to feel something for a change

Yesterday I let myself be completely vulnerable with someone. Maybe it was only because I know I'll never see you again, at least not the same way, but it felt really good.

I should work on being a better friend. .

Everything seems to be cyclic, because I keep finding myself in the same situations as years past. Is this redundancy an error on my part? I think it must be.

Why do I keep wanting things I know I'll never have.

The universe tells me one thing for sure, some people are meant to be alone and I am one of those people. I will never truly be myself in a relationship, I will never be someones other half. I can never give myself completely to another person without punishing them for it later. I am forever difficult.

I'm afraid I'll be alone forever. Then a part of me feels weak and foolish for being afraid, and wills me to accept it gracefully.

Even if I am a bit wounded, I guess I wouldn't take it back. That is the sadist in me talking, always looking for ways to hurt myself.

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I would dial the numbers just to listen to your breath.

Once I wanted to be the greatest

I think I'm not doing well at work. Somehow no matter how many things I accomplish, one set back makes me feel like I know nothing at all. On the one hand, I don't feel challenged and I know for sure that I'm not living up to my potential. On the other hand, I love my schedule and I've been enjoying living a life that isn't centered around my job.

I guess I've been skating by, going through the motions. When did I become okay with being sub-par? I used to want to be the best at everything. I lost that somewhere along the way. I feel second-rate. I could do more, be more. I should.

Sometimes I wish I just had a desk job.